Maria Vasquez

Art Period 2

August 15 2014

 

 

Does anyone really know themselves?

 

 

Do you really know yourself? Learning about yourself is one of the hardest things in life. Weather you know what you like, what your personality is, or what you don't like about yourself maybe even the things you don't like. In the end, it doesn't really matter because soon enough you will. You'll learn more things there is about you. There could be people out there that don't even have the smallest clue about themselves. But the real question is, do you really know yourself? from the smallest to biggest things? For example, me. I could easily say that I somewhat know myself.

 

Somewhere in this world there are many people that don't know themselves and are in the move to discover who they really are. In a way I know the basics, there is about me. So many simple things that I have never really took the chance to realize what they were. Starting from the bottom I know that I have a small temper. But then again, I enjoy drawing. Even though it takes a lot of patient and cool. I also love to be able to have the opportunity to have some spare time to sit back and watch some awesome anime. But in all honesty my favorite anime's have to be Death Note, Dragon Ball Z, Naruto and Vampire Knight. Yet again I also enjoy watching some K-Drama's but from all of them which is a lot, my most favorite one's are Stairway to Heaven, Your Beautiful, The Bride of the Century, and Inspiring Generation. Then again who can forget about music? I really, but really enjoy hearing music. It's my own type of therapy you could say. My favorite genre is rock, alternative, and K-Pop even though I hear almost every type of genre's.

 

Then there is the most important thing to me. My family. I live in a normal apartment building, with two room, two bathrooms, a kitchen, and a nice big living room. In my magical house hold there is my two parents, and my three brothers. My youngest brother is 3 year's old about to be four this upcoming February. My second youngest brother barely turn 9 years old this July. As for my older brother he also barely turn 18 this July. Then there's me, I was born May 1 1999. I'm 15 years old and I am about 5'0 ft. tall. Even though there are many times that I understand my families feelings, their actions, and their words there also those day's that they just don't make sense. As if I can't understand what they are trying to say. Then there are those days that I wonder. If I really understand them? Do I really know them? or is it just me pretending to know them? This is one of the things that I don't quite get about myself. Something that I yet don't full  understand about myself. Similar to one of those sayings that go like this "If you don't know yourself then take time to find yourself"-Nitra Gipson. Maybe I should do that.

 

Then there is the negative things that I don't like about myself, or the things I simply don't like. Then again there is also the things that I don't quite fully or haven't fully understood about myself. For example, those times that I get my emotions mixed up, and I don't know how to react to things or how to feel. Or the times that I wonder about my religion, what I believe in and what I don't believe in. To the things that I don't like, there are quite a handful of things. One of those things are when a teacher assigns to much homework that's due in a short period of time, or just plainly assign too much homework. Then there is the things that I dislike to wear. For instance, I don't do short things like short shorts, dresses or tight shirts that feel like your suffocating in them. Then there is the colors. I don't like pink. But just because I don't  like it, I don't go rampage in the poor shirt or piece of clothing. I really don't mind wearing colors that I don't like, as long as the shirt is nice and comfy. The things that I don't like about myself, has to be my low temper and my shy-ness that I have. For example, when someone talks to me to be friendly, my timid-ness kicks in and I feel like they think of me as a rude person. Yet I know that I shouldn't care but deep down there is always going to be that part of me that's going to want to have everyone think fund of me.

 

In conclusion, I still don't quite fully understand myself yet, I am still in the process of discovering myself. Looking for my vulnerabilities, my strengths, my pain. I have yet to discover more things about myself, and I hope that with the time I could. Then the questions lingers within my head. When will I have the chance to be able to fully and know myself? But as I think of that, there is this joy that over comes me as I think of the simple fact that I constantly change and grow. I develop new perspective's and  different mind set. Everything changes about me and that what makes me eager to learn more about myself as soon as I can. I'll get the chance to discover those new things about me but the only way to do that is also very simple. To pay close attention to myself. To observe the smallest and biggest actions, words and feelings that I get or make. Lastly it would be to watch and notice every bit if my flaws and myself in general.